One last dance with you
even though what we have is strong
both of us know that we've done nothing wrong
you could lose everything
need to give it up
just one last dance with you
for all the moments that we shared
all the lies they don't compare
you gotta go back to him, and I realize that
every time I see your face I know
there's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

One last dance with you
so hard to find the words to say
but I can't see any other way
girl you've risked everything
time to give it up
just one last dance with you
and though it breaks my heart to leave
we both know it's time to let it breathe
you gotta go back to him, girl I realize that
every time I see your face I know
there's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

heavenknows

9:57 pm

BLAH!
some bum lazy to update his blog
so here i am
doing him a favour((:
so nice right?
aye.
his friends have been staying over his house for
3days.
i dont know if today will be the fourth
hahah.
aye.
i dont know what to update la
aye.
nicki!
i dont know what to update already
blah.
okay.
P.S iloveyou.noquestionsasked((:

heavenknows

12:31 pm

You're Right
when I'm Wrong
You're my Light
when I'm not strong

You're that greatness in me
That breaks me free
from the troubles of this place
All I yearn for is your beautiful face
Bless me now with all your grace
guide me through this troublesome phase

Please oh please my....

One and Only

heavenknows

5:23 pm

Never thought that I would find
The one who'd steal my heart
Someone who I could give my love
Right from the very start

It seemed like there was nothing left
All hope was gone from me
I'd never find that special girl
It wasn't meant to be
But then one day, to my surprise
Inside my world you came

And from that moment,
I knew that I'd never be the same
I've found who I have longed for
And I thank God we're together
I love you more each coming day
My heart is yours forever

~ Nicki ♥ Nadia ~
~ Nicki ♥ Nadia ~
~ Nicki ♥ Nadia ~

heavenknows

10:58 pm

To ALL:

I might not be able to take my N levels this year because of a certain cheating case, a certain class mate of mine happened to copy parts of my FnN coursework. I only found out about this 45 minutes from the time that I post this entry, I got a call from my FnN teacher and she told me that I was involved in this and that i might be BANNED from taking my entire N level. If this all ends up bad. I might never make it in life. Every stepping stone in life is important miss one or trip over one and the fall might be too unbearable or too disasterous for me. I might never know the outcome of this situation. Wish me good luck and a fortunate ending to this chaper in my life for I may never be able to excel in life if this ends up BAD. Right now, I'm reflecting to see what I have done or what I dont wrong to do this. Did i offend anyone? Or GOD for this matter? I'll never know. This might be one of my last entries if I ever find the Mood to ever continue blogging. Hope everyone who reads this might understand this situation and how you guys can avoid it

From,
Nicki

heavenknows

12:30 am

Drooping eyelids on a pale moonlight
I'm uncoiling my feelings in sketching the night
All images and scenery embracing you
The sketches of a love forever true
From the rustles of palm leaves
A melody has cheered me to be believe
Of what was meant to be
An undying love, you and me

sweet, short
and to the point
I love You,
You're the only one for me
the only one i ever need
the only one i'll never leave

heavenknows

10:43 pm

Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Climbing higher through the fire, time was running out
Never knowing you weren't going to be coming down alive
But you still came back for me
You were strong and you believed

Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day
Never fearing, only hearing voices calling out
Let it all go, the life that you know, just to bring them down alive

Wanna hold Her when I see her again
Wanna tell the her she'll never know how much I love to see her smile
Wanna make a change right here right now
Wanna live a life like you somehow
Wanna make your sacrifice worthwhile

Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day

heavenknows

8:37 pm

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

heavenknows

1:09 pm

I'm just so tired
Won't you sing me to sleep
Fly through my dreams
So I can hitch a ride With you tonight
And get away from this place
Have a new name and face
I just ain't the same without you in my life

Late night drives
All alone in my car
I can't help but start
Singing lines From all our favorite songs
And melodies in the air
Singing, life just ain't fair
But sometimes I still just can't
Believe you're gone

And I'm sure the view from Heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in Heaven
Then we will make it through
One more year,
down here

heavenknows

7:38 pm

I love you like how the trees yearn for Spring,
with all the joy and blossoms with love you bring.

I love you like how the Sun loves the earth,
bringing its warm love throughout the universe,
even in the depths of the amazon there you are,
with you my endless joy is never so far.

I love you like how the rain fills the sky,
pouring each and every drop of enchantment,
after which theres the sun
and rainbow so astonishing appears
it'll make the hearts of man cry.

I love you like how the sun loves the flower,
like the sun loves the flower in the depths of winter.


P.S-- This should prove that my poems aren't good enough =)) its REALLY BAD!!!!! haha....

heavenknows

10:01 pm

Strange dear, but true dear,
When I'm close to you, dear,
The stars fill the sky,
So in love with you am I.
Even without you,
My arms fold about you,
You know darling why,
So in love with you am I.
In love with the night mysterious,
The night when you first were there,
In love with my joy delirious,
When I knew that you could care,
So taunt me, and hurt me,
Deceive me, desert me,
I'm yours, till I die.....
So in love with you,
my love... am I....

heavenknows

10:37 pm

Suntanned, windblown
Honeymooners at last alone
Feeling far above par
Oh, how lucky we are

While I give to you and you give to me
True love, true love
So on and on it will always be
True love, true love

For you and I have a guardian angel
On high, with nothing to do
But to give to you and to give to me
Love forever, true

heavenknows

11:41 pm

My story is much too sad to be told,
but practically everything leaves me totally cold.
The only exception i know is the case,
when i'm out on a quiet spree,
fighting vainly the old enui and i suddenly turn and see,
your fabulous face.

I get no kick from Champagne
Mere alchohol doesn't thrill me at all
so tell me why should it be true
that i get a kick out of you

Some get a kick from cocain
i'm sure that if i took even one sniff
that would bore me terrificly too
yet i get a kick out of you

i get a kick every time i see you standing there before me
i get a kick though its clear to me you obviously don't adore me
I get no kick in a plane
Flying too high with some guy in the sky is my idea of nothing to do

heavenknows

1:37 pm

I was a humdrum person
leading a life apart
when love flew in through my window wide
and quickened my humdrum heart

love flew in through my window
I was so happy then
but after love had stayed a little while
love flew out again

what is this thing called love
this funny thing called love
just who can solve its mystery
why should it make a fool of me?

I saw you there
one wonderful day
you took my heart
and threw it away
thats why I ask the lord
in heaven above
what is this thing called love?

heavenknows

1:47 pm

When it’s overthat’s the time I fall in love again.
When it’s overthat’s the time you’re in my heart again.
And when you go, go, go, goI know it never endsnever ends.
All things that I used to say,
all words that got in the way,
All things that I used to know
have gone out the window.
All things that she used to bring,
all songs that she used to sing,
All her favorite TV shows
have gone out the window.

-- Random stuff ppl... dont think too much

heavenknows

9:37 pm

Love is in the air, everywhere I look around
Every sight and every sound
And I don't know if I’m being foolish, don't know if I’m being wise
But is something that I must believe in
And it's there when I look in your eyes

In the whisper of the trees
In the thunder of the seaAnd I don't know if I’m just dreaming, don't know if I feel sane
But it's something that I must believe in
And it's there when you call out my name

In the rising of the sun
When the day is nearly done
And I don't know if you're illusion, don't know if I see it true
But you're something that I must believe in
And you're there when I reach out for you

heavenknows

9:02 pm

I have seen the new moon, sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face.
The pieces of my broken heart are so small they can be passed through the eye of a needle.
I love you like the sun loves the flower; like the sun loves the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to.
I will find it empty and in the winter if you are not there.
The hope guides me. It is what gets me through the day, and especailly the night.
The hope that after you are gone from my sight it will not be the last time I look upon you.

"Love has a large amount of FEAR, but PERFECT love, drives away all FEAR."

You Be the Judge.

heavenknows

11:47 pm

Trying to figure out where we went wrong
The radio turns on thats our song
Waiting to hear both of our favorite parts
Each word is eating at my heart

And all I can remember are those mesmerising eyes
The more I stare at them the more im getting blind
I dont feel so hungry anymore
Cause all im full from that aura in ur presence
I dont think I can walk anymore
Cause with you I think I can fly
Dont really wanna live any more
Cause with you I think im in heaven

Feel your fire, when it's cold in my heart
And things sorta start reminding me
Of my last night with you
I only need one more day
Just one more chance to say
I wish that I had gone up with you too

heavenknows

9:53 am

So you wrote it down
I'm supposed to care
Even though it's never there
Sorry if I'm not prepared
Is it hard to see the things you substitute
For me and all my thoughts of you
It's eating me alive to leave you

I'm breathing in your skin tonight
Quiet is my loudest cry
Wouldn't wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside
And if it's healthier to leave you be
May a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me

I'm finding my own words, my own little stage
My own epic drama, my own scripted page
I'll send you the rough draft, I'll seal it with tears
Maybe you'll read it and I'll reappear
From the start it was shaky and the characters rash
A nice setting for heartache, where emotions come last
All I have deep inside, to overcome this desire
Are friendly intentions and fair weather smiles

And I don't wanna be wrong,
You're leaving me in lieu of this
Like Saturday night,
I'll be gone before you knew that I was there

heavenknows

8:39 pm

If I could I would do all of this again
Travel back in time with you to where this all began
We could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind
And make believe there's something left to find

Now we've all grown up, gone on and moved away
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say
To bring us back to where we were when life was not this hard
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far away

I need you now, we're miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart

I'd give it all up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day,
I'd give it all up for just one more day with you...

heavenknows

11:27 am

I think I'm breaking out
I'm gonna leave you now
There's nothing for me here, it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here, I'm not afraid

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here, I'm on my way
I made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say, I'm not afraid

Letting out the noise inside of me
Every window pane is shattering
Cutting off my words before I speak
This is how it feels to not believe

Way away, away from here I'll be
Way away, away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Feels to be alone and not believe anything

Dedicated to- *ah le*

heavenknows

10:50 am

Eyes are feeling heavy
But they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin
But the air is never cold
And even though you're next to me
I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything
For you to call your own

Something I've been keeping
Locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free
With each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you
But it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of
They have filled me up with doubt

How am I supposed to feel
About the things I've done
I don't know if I should stay
Or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you
Things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew
I threw it all away

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating
My heart's sinking like a weight

heavenknows

10:01 pm

Daylight on my shoulder
Makes me feel alive
You kept me standing in your shadow
And it’s a cold cold place to hide
I’m running away from this messed up place
I’m breaking free,

I know you won’t let me
But just turn and walk away
I’m tired of when you kick me around
Trying to kill my dreams and break me down
But I won’t hang around

I’m tired of staring at the sun
Can’t stand the way you burn my eyes so I can’t see
Stealing every breath I breathe
You push me into overdrive
And I don’t need this kind of light coz now I’m done
You took everything while I was staring at the sun

heavenknows

12:57 pm

Well i lost my faith in fellow man
I've been living alone for so long
That i dont know who i am

I've been waiting a lifetime
For someone like you to set me free
Why did it take so long
For you to come and rescue me?

Well it just don't matter if its wrong or right
I didnt know something could feel so good
I've been wasting all my time

Cause you're beautiful and everyone knows it
And you're everything i want you to be
I got sunshine on my face
My smile shows it
Well it can't be wrong
Cause you're so right for me
You're so right for me~....

heavenknows

10:56 pm

*No posts today, just this little poem i was thinking about lying on my bed*

How i regretted i turned u away,
I wanted you as well but i was afraid,
that what we were having would soon fade,
but now im stuck here reminiscing*,
thinking of what we COULD have had instead.

i struck a dagger into ur heart,
only to find that it wouldnt cut,
cause now i see u happier then before,
much more joyful, cheerful than back in 2004.

if i could turn back time DAMN i would,
if i could have one day out just with you,
i would give you everything i've taken from you,
how can that be that i'd let other people influence me,
that you were not perfect and good enough for me,
no body is perfect and neither am i,
so what is it that im finding its to be by your side..........

heavenknows

10:21 pm

OMG today was like damn Freaking Tired but damn freaking fun Scored 2 goals at soccer *Yea* but... had an ankle injury and was kicked on the leg a fair number of times.. overall we lost 4-3... *god dammit* haha... had this geo remedial after school... quite good to go actually... dunno why i havent gone for remedials since i lost touch of ALL my subjects... haha... after that straight away went to timah... *for dota* (god i reallly MUST STUDY) oh well.. won 2/2 games... there was a 3rd game... but only played half... gtg for tuition at 7:30... and its 7:25 now... opps =XX guess i'd better be going... anyways..made an image with photo shop... any comments?










P.S heres the lyric of the day:

My first, my last, my everything.
And the answer to all my dreams.
You're my sun, my moon, my guiding star.
My kind of wonderful, that's what you are

I know there's only, only one like you.
There's no way, they could have made two
You're all I'm living for,
Your love I'll keep for evermore,
You're the first, you're the last, my everything.

And with you I've found so many things
A love so new only you could bring
Can't you see if you,
You'll make me feel this way.
You're like a first morning dew on a brand new day.
I see so many ways that I can love you,
Till the day I die.
You're my reality, yet I'm lost in a dream.
You're the first, the last, my everything

Barry White- You're The First, The Last, My Everything

heavenknows

7:25 pm

Hey sorry i havent been blogging for the past few days, (actually only 2 days ) , cause im down with some stomach flu... havent really been myself for a couple of weeks...i know ive been acting strange... im shutting myself out from society, really, not feeling too good, really got to rest... ive got to stop late nights and welcome early sleeping, it really is not healthy, well got to go... rest again.. (perhaps vomit)... catch u later, B.Y.E

heavenknows

9:35 pm

Hey Hey Hey!... today was one really cracked up day!... it really was... haha... but cant really remember wat was so funny... hmm and right now... im going crazy... cause:

1) S4L Speech/ Essay not done yet,
2) Havent Memorised (1) yet,
3) Just getting insane cause i dont know what to write!

Lyric of the Day to get HYPED UP!:

Sit tight, I'm gonna need you to keep time
Come on just snap, snap, snap your fingers for me
Good, good now we're making some progress
Come on just tap, tap, tap your toes to the beat
I believe this may call for a proper introduction, and well
Don't you see, I'm the narrator, and this is just the prologue?

Swear we'll shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young but desperate for attention
I aim to be, your eyes(heart&mind), trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear we'll shake it up, and you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Applause, applause, no wait wait
Dear studio audience, I've an announcement to make:
It seems the artists these days are not who you think
So we'll pick back up on that on another page
And I believe this may call for a proper introduction, and well
Don't you see, I'm the narrator and this is just the prologue

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, and you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen
Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen
Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen
Swear to shake it up, swear to shake it up
Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen

Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, and you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be, your eyes

*from Panic! At The Disco- The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide*
Haha took the whole SONG YES ITS THAT NICE!

Nothing much else to say... its crunch time... gonna write my speech now
(Estimated Time Left: 4 hours) good luck to me... Bye all.. =))

heavenknows

10:09 pm

Hi again... today was kinda fun... we had double FnN ( food and nutrition ) what can i say.... i had another lecture... but... it was super Relacc... listened to my Mp3 (the GIANTIC i-River) while doing my coursework... after that... we went for english.. soso lah... But then there was an SS test and i was like WTF! *obviously i didnt study* but i turned out quite normal and easy.... im serious... it was EASY... 2 lessons of chem ( means that 2 periods of arguing with Mogan... vulgarites all over the place... SUPER HAPPY FUN TIME! =)) i love scolding vulgarities)... then we had a maths test... easy as hell... well gtg for now... damn hot today sia... Bye Bye...

P.S heres today's lyric of the day...just part of it... just something i want u all to see =))

Lyric Of The Day:

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday, if ever you love me, you'd say it's okay

*Song by Yellowcard- Empty Apartment*

heavenknows

4:14 pm

Hello... well dunno much about what to say really... just testing testing... well... i am THIS bored that i am blogging so yea... so what did i do in school... we had like 4 free-periods... damn relax... din actually study for maths test... found it damn fucking hard... haha... damn it... dunno wat to say... so i think it ends here... i need help on how to add music to my blog.... anyone?

heavenknows

8:19 pm